Listening to: Unstoppable - E.S. Posthumus
Reading: Robert Frost's Poems/Sylvia Plath's poems
Watching: Cardinals vs San Francisco
Eating: Multi Grain Cheerios and a Banana Nut Muffin
Drinking: Skim milk
"She is clothed in strength and dignity, and laughs without fear of the future." Proverbs 31:25
I really have no idea what is wrong with me. I should be so happy and excited and love everything about my life right now. I've got it good, I know that, and I try to refrain from taking it for granted. But that's in the best of times.
"They were the best of times, they were the worst of times..." Charles Dickens knew his shit. He really did. Even out of context, the beginning phrase of one of his most critically acclaimed novels is still relevant to people today.
I suppose I feel this way because there is so much pressure this year. I graduate high school at the end of this year. It seemed like we'd all be in high school forever, four years was such a long time to be in school when we were thirteen. Now we're almost adults, some of us already are, and we're going to be moving on in the world soon. It's scary.
To work so hard to get so far and then realize that real life is gonna suck is a really big let down. Things won't be handed to us any more. We won't have someone to do the laundry for us or hold us when we have a nightmare. We're gonna be on our own soon.
I personally have been waiting for that my whole life, or at least since I was aware it was possible. But now we've gotta slog through one more year of high school, just one more, nine more months of my life down the drain.
Everything used to look so permanent.
Now, I'm not so sure.
Take everything one step at a time and you will arrive at your destination.